Let's Drawing!

I have a lang-8 account where I try to write in Japanese as much as I can, which really means not much at all. Even though I really believe that the more you write each day the better you'll get, the problem, though, is actually starting. And finishing. Even if I know it'll do wonders for my ability to retain and remember vocabulary, I'm way too lazy.

So every year, I have to psych myself out. I write things like the following entry below, which if I summarize, is just a bunch of whining and belly-aching about how my Japanese sucks and how I wanna take a break and focus on my plans for world domination or whatever. And it works. After I write about how Japanese is kicking my butt (waa waa)and declare I'm going to quit for a while, suddenly I want to study and learn vocab.



四年間も日本語を勉強してきたのに、まだ上手になっていない。
怠惰のせいかな。
なんか勉強すればするほど漢字を忘れてしまうので、自分の能力に信じなくなった。
どうしよう？

ウロウロしてて道に迷っている日本人を見かけると、やばっと逃げてしまう。日本語を使いたくないから。
バカみたいだよね、私。

とにかく、日本語のことをかんがえなくて住みたいの。　ちょっとした間休憩しようか。　


Works every time.

I really need some new erasers. The ones I've been using make my drawings dirtier than I'd like, and leave a lot of residue. Even if I wash them, they still leave gunk on the paper.

I've been forcing myself to draw guys lately, and it's going surprisingly OK. But they're just not GAR enough.

I'll guess I'll try harder.

I was searching through some folders on my computer the other day, and found some comics i'd done in Photoshop. They're sloppy, but I DID manage to draw them successfully (Yay me!). (while channeling some Dan Kim in a few of them...) I don't want to turn this into a comic dump, so maybe it'll be a day by day thing.

I dedicate this mediocre post to my little cousin, who effed up the space bar on my laptop with his "gaming". I had to press the spacebar 4-5 times after each word to even get a space in, bless his rotten soul.
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Boy, I'm really bad at finishing projects.
My hard drive is full with .psds, all of which are reject artworks I didn't have the patience to finish.

In the last post I think I said something about painting cantaloupes, but that seemed like a huge waste of life, lol.

Here are some of my work-in-progress stuff; though some of these have been sitting on my desktop for months...and will probably stay there for ever more many, many more.








Friend: You never draw guys, do you?
Me: ORZ.
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This is a (not so) delicious pear I painted. You must eat it.


People Who Hate to Eat

食べることは私には似合わないって言う人は、まったく理解できません。

だって食べることは生きていることでしょう？

息をすることと同じように必要なことなんでしょう？

ずっとそう思ってきました。

老人なら、病気なら、食欲がない人ならいいんだけど、元気な十一歳のいとこにそのようなことを初めて言われた時、すごいショックを受けました。はきそうくらいに。

差別とでも呼ばれるかもしれないが、女の子にそういわれたら、あまり気にしていないかもしれません。

（ところで、私のいとこは男の子です。）

でも、変なの、イトコよ。赤ちゃんの時、食わせるためにずっと泣いていたのに、今は食べることがイヤだというの？

信じられない。

どうみても、なにも食べたがっていない男性はあやしいもんですね。
信用しては絶対ダメだです。ああいう男性を。（＾＾；）


Painting Ruts

So yes, I'm in a bit of a painting rut. For some reason I find it really hard to finish anything I try to paint in Photoshop. And I really want to get good at digital painting. But isn't it funny, though? Someone takes 1 hour to paint a masterpiece and they're a bloody genius, but someone else takes an entire week and it's like, "well, it's no wonder it's good; after all, they took so long."

I don't like such double standards, but I won't lie, speed is a skill too. I think i'll try to go back to the basics. It doesn't matter if it looks good or not or if its perfect, practicing is the key. Keep producing and producing, and eventually something will click.

I hope.

Expect many more fruit paintings in the future.

I think I'll work on a cantaloupe next.